ALONE
I often talk about going to Portugal and staying for an indefinite period of time. Claudia has said it would be wonderful if she and Michael were with me. After our short stay at the Island, it wouldn't work.
They have constant needs, beginning with eating. They also demand incessant entertainment. No poetry would flow from my pen if I had to deal with their demands every day.I want to be in small apartment or a hotel room with a balcony that overlooks Lisbon or Coimbra or Porto or wherever I decided to stay. I want peace and quiet so I can think, write, read, study and strum my guitar. I could not pursue these amusements if I had to attend to Claudia and Michael.
Michael would be impossible. He would be bored out of his mind. Sitting in a cafe and sipping coffee would not qualify as fun. I might register him in a gym, but exercising would hardly fill his day. As I said at the beginning of this paragraph, he would be impossible. It would be one complaint after another until the hellhole Brownsville would seem like heaven to him.
Claudia would be tolerable, but she would wear on my nerves just dealing with her next meal. She is also the type of person who wants to do and see things at a much quicker pace than I care to move. The two nights at the Island convinced me that I would be miserable.
I sound like someone who hasn't won the lottery but is fighting with different family members over every one's portion. With Coronavirus casting its dark shadow over us, I may not escape its lethal presence or its ramifications in my daily life.
For one, Portugal won't allow any Americans into the country. Perhaps, there are other destinations. I don't know. I'm not interested in going to Africa or Asia. I have limited my imagination to Europe and South America and to the best of my knowledge we aren't welcomed in any of these countries.
It may be my destination to remain incarcerated with Claudia and Michael in our house for years. It is a comfortable existence because we retire to different rooms and I comfortably pursue my interests. But if my destination were to lead me to extended stays elsewhere, I would have to go alone if I wanted to enjoy myself. Otherwise, I would be miserable. It is sad to brush aside my family, but as Trump said in a recent interview about the 170,000 COVID deaths, "It is what it is."
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